Me

Me..
What am i?
Who am i?
what do i wanna be?
direction of my life?
planned lots of things in ma mind
but did so little
thought a lot
never did enuff
dream high
but nothing in reality

discipline and determination
perseverance and consistency
focus and concentration
all of which i should have
all of what i thought of i should be
excuses by excuses
i lay out on me

when would the road really be taken
when would i would wake from this?

only me
only I
Hadi Hasannudin
could answer that

2.06 a.m.

Hungry at 2.06 am,
sitting on my bed infront of this,
sinking inside the soothing music of my collection,
need i say more?

the season is in,
as the flu 'flu' around hoping from one to another,
infecting others in sight or upon touch,
annoying as it is,
distracting normal life and its activities.

sleepy eyes,
blurry and blurry it gets,
but still
scribbling away by pressing
this written words of no directions
hoping to go somewhere
but hopeless without plan n direction

these are the words
that hav no meaning or direction
and it will
it will
it will
STOP!

Dr Boogey build - Finished!!!

Dr Boogey build (Day 1)

Dr Boogey Build (Day 2)

Finally, the beast is alive!!!! After weeks of debugging, i finally succeed! Right after all the parts arrived, i wired everything up. Thought quite a lot about positioning of the knobs though when the drilling the enclosure.

The problem started right away after everything was wired up. Got sound when bypassed (using true bypass) but nothing when enganged! Damn! Checked all the solder and wiring, everything looked ok. Then, i took the jfet's reading and post it at diystompboxes.com forum. The guys told me that the voltages of my Q1 and Q2 (the jfet's) weren't right. At Q1 the voltages were nearly the same for all feet (D, S and G) while at Q2, there's no voltage at S while G shows high voltages reading. I replaced the Q1 with an j201 laying around (used for the MT2 mod but took it out) but still nothing. Then decided to resolder the components around Q1 coz my soldering job there was f****ng bad! and walla! there's sound coming out of the box... but DAMN it was ugly! very fizzy and thin!

Asked again at the forum and the guys suggested that it was the Q2 that might caused it. So i ordered up some j201's from farnell with sets of sockets too! See, as explained by ultraman_cosmo (from jamtank.net), jfets are very sensitive to heat. so, by using socket, i won't worry bout frying up the j201. and i can easily swaps the jfets coz apparently, each jfet (even same type) can affect the end sound!

Then, all soldered up, setting the drain voltages of Q1, Q2, Q3 and Q4 to 4.5v, i fired it up! And the beast; Dr Boogey is alive!!!!!

The tone? fat sounding distortion with lots of balls! haha. suprisingly very quiet though. but still need some jfet biasing to be done to really nail the tone that i want. However, recoded a clip using my digital camera. It sounds kinda 'tubey' though the clips but can get you the rough idea.

Here's some pictures 1st..

the workstation!

Gut view

Another gut view

The beast itself.... Dr Boogey!

Last but not least, the demo!

of graduations, MEng and BEng...

Damn, i wish i could be there watching my frens of Nottingham University graduated juz now. but some unforseen circumstances wouldn't let me. Only got to watch the pictures taken by Nik Izzat.

So, they graduated. They chose to end after 3 years with a Bachelor Degree. and i still have one more year to go to straightly graduate to Master of Engineering. am i doing the right thing here? how big of advantage am i getting? questions been asking to myself for quite a while. I guess we'll juz wait and see.

the status of this British system of MEng is somewhat still blurry. I heard, JPA only looks at it as a degree coz its an undergraduated course; direct 4 years without graduating 1st as a 'Bachelor'. if so, how about British's system of BEng? a lower degree? same level?

Board of Engineers Malaysia (BEM) only accredited 4 years of MEng from university of Nottingham. According to the BEM's website, this means that only through MEng (for University of Nottingham), the graduated students can register with BEM as a 'Graduate Engineer'. The BEM justify it by saying that students must go through 4 years of engineering programme for 'em to be qualified to register as 'Graduate Engineer'. Every other BEng programmes in other local University (which has a duration of 4 years) is accredited and the graduate can register as 'Graduate Engineer'. This is a list from BEM's website.
http://www.bem.org.my/v3/pdf/listofaccreditedprogrammes.pdf

What does this say then to my fellow frens who juz graduated with BEng from University of Nottingham? I'm not sure but I certainly haven't heard my seniors has a hard time finding job because of that technicality. One even earning over RM20k a month working at Schlumbeger with juz a BEng in Mechanical Engineering.

So, what's the difference actually? Asked around at the UNiM's career fair some months ago, all (Shell, Cameron (oil&gas), Sime Darby) said that they do differentiate MEng and BEng. mostly with a higher salary for MEng. guess, to really know it, i juz have to look at my seniors who graduated with MEng.

Btw, below is an explaination by Dr Stewart McWilliam, director of studies for Mechanical Engineering about MEng/BEng.
________________________________________________________

Dear Hadi,

BEng (Bachelor of Engineering) and MEng (Master of Engineering) are both undergraduate courses.

MSc (Master of Science) is a postgraduate course.

The BEng and MEng Mechanical Engineering courses are accredited by the Institution of Mechanical Engineering (IMechE). This means that the courses are recognised by the Engineering Council in the UK. The MEng is the preferred route to becoming a Professional Engineer – in the UK a Professional Engineer is called a Chartered Engineer. A student with a BEng qualification needs to study to a higher level (possibly an MSc) before they are eligible to apply to become a Chartered/Professional Engineer.

In Malaysia only 4 year MEng courses are accredited by the Board of Engineers Malaysia (BEM). If you wish to be a professional engineer in Malaysia it is advisable to take the MEng. The Malaysia Campus had an accreditation visit by the BEM approx 3 weeks ago. As yet we have not recieved the final verdict, but we are hopeful that the Mechanical Engineering MEng course will be accredited by BEM.

In the UK we offer an MSc in Mechanical Engineering. Currently we do not offer an MSc at the Malaysia campus. The UK MSc offers students the possibility of upgrading their BEng qualification for the purposes of becoming a Chartered Engineer. Many of the modules studied on the MSc are identical to those offered at the Malaysia campus. The majority of modules on the MSc are at level 4 (MM 4 CFD is a level 4 module). The MSc is a full year course starting in September and finishing in August, involving 180 credits, 60 of which are for an individual project. In contrast, the 4th year of the MEng is from September to June and involves only 120 credits. A significant difference is that the MEng involves a large Group Development Project (40 credits). This project is design related involving writing a business plan, conceptual design, design evolution, proof of concept, and possibly manufacturing a prototype.

In summary the MEng is more focused on the needs of engineering industry than the MSc, whilst the MSc is used to enable a BEng student to study to the required higher level to become a Chartered/Professional Engineer. Ultimately the choice is yours. If you are intending to embark on a career in industry my advice would be to take the MEng. Alternatively you could take a BEng and then an MSc. One final point is that you should check the requirements in your country for becoming a Professional engineer, as this may help you decide.

I hope this is helpful,

Regards,

Stewart

Director of Studies

Faculty of Engineering

Department of Mechanical, Materials and Manufacturing Engineering

________________________________________________________________________________________

Anyhow, in the BEM's list of accredited engineering programmes in M'sia, MEng of Mechanical Engineering isn't there. Their accreditation team was in UNiM in May for evaluation. Hope that everything goes well and the MEng of Mechanical Engineering will be in the list soon.

Dr Boogey build (Day 2)

Dr Boogey build (Day 1)

Well, it's not actually the 2nd day, but wut the hell. Soldered all the components on the board already! just need wiring up the power jacks, in and out jacks, pots, and switch.

Went to Jalan Pasar on Monday (6/7/09) to buy the remaining parts and straight away heat up my soldering iron after reach home! but damn, dunno why my iron suddenly wasn't hot enough! hardly can solder anything. so i rush to the nearest hardware store for a new soldering iron. but damn, that iron was useless. very hard to solder up things. i was sooooo pissed then!

but then, i decided to give the old iron a try. Wallla! all metls easily and soldering on that veroboard seems very easy! Long story short, last nite (wednesday morning) at around 4 am, i finished up soldering!

checked all the continuity, fixed whatever wasn't connected that was supposed to be. and cut all the remaining parts' legs. and below is some pictures!

Under the board before cutting the legs

Legs cut!

Above of the board after all soldered up!

Dr Boogie build (Day 1)

As an intro, Mesa Boogie Dual Rectifier is a very well known amp for its brutal and crushing distortion that's very sinonim in the world of Metal music scene. but the price is however ridiculously pricey especially here in Msia; >RM10k.

So, i decided to build this Dual rectifier emulator pedal called Dr. Boogie which was designed by a guy called Electritab from diystompbox.com forum. Below is the perfboard schematic of it which is based on the revised circuit by gaussmarkov.



So, finally the parts came today (saturday, 4/7/09). and i started building it just now. however, what i did was only putting the components on the perfboard base on the schematic above. Soldering will be done later coz there's still missing parts. gotta go to Jalan Pasar to get 'em.

the present work

Finally, demo of my modded MT-2

Yeah! I finally got off my lazy ass to find a camera to record a demo of my pride n joy; My modded MT-2! Btw, this is juz with the germanium/diode clipping (my favourite!) mode.

Here is where i rant about wut i did with it the last time.
Metal Zone... Modded!

However, i changed the JFet clippings with a pair of silicon diodes which give.... kinda the same sound as my favourite; germanium diode & silicon diodes. But somehow to my ears, germanium/silicon clippings has a bit tighter distortion than silicon pairs. Think i'm gonna try silicon/LED sometimes later.

p/s i know, i know.. i suck in that video but hope it'll give some 'picture' of the tone. and also sorry for the video quality. had to convert it to reduce the size coz the limit is 100mb

United we stand, Divided we fall.

Tonite's post gonna be a quite serious one. I was surfing facebook and suddenly saw the Group about banning Ganyang Malaysia. Apparently, there are alot of 'Hate Malaysia' kinda group in fb with large followings compromising of mostly (if not all) indonesians. This is a very sad thing to be seen to me.

We come mostly from the same ancestors (the malays) or 'serumpun' to simplify it. but why so much hate? i dunno how much of the indonesians joining the group are muslims. but that's what makes it worst. we muslim are too divided right now. That is our BIGGEST WEAKNESS in my opinion. Even in Palestine alone, they are divided with sometimes bloodshed between 'em. What we do here is actually making the Zionist a big favour. The Zionist rule the world coz they unite and they work hard to get there. We should too. Calling 'Jihad' with intention of bloodshed to overcome it WOULD NOT solve it. The 'Jihad' that we must do is within each self. Unite is the first thing IMO that we should do. The Arabs have to be one. The Malays in M'sia hav to be one. Even the Indonesians hav to be one.

Damn, i could not go on with this post for my head is spinning around coz too much durian. Well, i'll end this with a simple phrase.

Bersatu kita teguh! Bercerai kita roboh!

Midnight rantings

its 2 sumthing in the morning. without my shirt wit juz my sweat pants. sitting in this attic room of mind.

what am i going to write about today? politics? music? i've been meaning to write a review for an album. but never got to it. heck, i've been meaning to do lots of it and end up not doing it at all! thought of starting this blog also held up for almost a year before i really make it. procastinator i am then!

a dreamer! that's what i am too. but sometimes, or.. Ok Ok, most of the time actually, too much of it. dream is good. but like all other things its bad. hmm.. that's something else i like to do. relate things to other things and make it as general. why do i do that? no idea.

been meaning to write a full song actually, but never got to it. got ideas once in a while. end up forgetting about how to play it. usually would remembr the notes or chords, but not the melody itself. and also quite lazy to arrange. usually stuck when writing the next line for a melody that i thought of. or forgot about the original melody when manage to make the next line.

oh, this is long already. so.. that's all for 2nite!

Summer break part-time job...

Hmmm... failed yesterday's interview. already got the call for the result. so, the tally is 2 failed rejected interview and 2 rejected jobstreet calls coz they only have a minimum of 6 months contract.

The question is, will i continue hunting? or do i juz lazy around in the house for 4 months. 1 months i think is ok. but 3 months? mati kutu aku! n i won't get any extra money also! but quite lazy to go to work. sigh... Asked The Guitar Collection about their vacancy yesterday but the downside is... 12 hours working for 4 days and 9 hours for 2 days; all for every week! if 9 hours for 4 days and 12 hours for 2 days i think is quite ok, but 12 hours for 4 days?? damn.. will i get to play guitar for most of the 12 hours? or will i juz sit around in the shop for 12 hours? Guitar shop isn't a shop that has lots of customers in and out regularly. at least in M'sia. haish...

So.... work? or not to work? guess i'm off to jobstreet.com.my after this... juz try my luck..